Sigh...here we go again. Trying very hard to not freak out. Last year was easier for me to stay positive....I don't know why; but I know I have to get that frame of mind back.
Lately I have been slammed again with sick foster pups. Timmy just had surgery, Kandi is having surgery this Thursday and Tootsie is being evaluated for possible DI. So, in keeping with my history, I now have my own issues concurrent with my pups:
I have had anemia since last year and they were recently trying B-12 injections; but yesterday when I saw the oncologist/hematologist she expressed concern because my levels just are not improving. Not getting worse, but certainly not better. Everything is out of whack, red and white cells, platelets... UGH
So, they are scheduling me for a bone marrow biopsy. I asked her what her suspicion was and she mentioned MDS (myelodysplastic syndrome). This is what Robin Roberts recently was treated for and it looked pretty awful.
I am trying really hard not to think about it and google it but I keep going back.
I simply cannot do treatments that take me away from my pups for a month. Just would never work. I am begging for prayers...I don't know if I can pray not to have it...actually I know I cannot....but I need prayers please just to accept whatever is coming my way.
My brother told me last night he would come down if needed; but I really, really hate to inconvenience people with my pups.
OK...enough complaining. I am going to sit down now and pay bills. That should sidetrack me for a bit. hah