dog JoMarie, I just got on line and read what you are going through and my heart sank. I had breast cancer, mastectomy, chemo radiation , panic attacks, it was a scary road. I had to get on my knees and say, Lord Jesus, I cannot do this without You. He carried me through and the prayers of all my friends. Is there a church or friends that can bring meals to you for awhile. That would help a lot. Do not look down the road, look up. Fix your eyes on the Lord and let Him lead and guide you. We all go in the valleys but with Jesus we have a light. He will direct your paths, bring angels along side you. I will pray for you my sweet friend in the spirit and you only lhave positive thoughts. You will get better. I did. I was really far down there. Are you having anxiety? Get meds. You are facing a lot and may need some calming meds. Hugs and Love! Sandy |