 Overwhelmed by y'all's kindness
I had typed a long thank you note to you all, expressing how blessed I feel having you taken the time of your busy schedules to think of me and my sweet boy, and our situation. I received a message saying the post must be reviewed, and of course, I didn't save it, so I am hoping it appears somehow. I couldn't not write it before I went to sleep; I am moved to tears by your collective prayers, thoughts, suggestions, personal stories, etc. I am trying my best to navigate communicating on here while being in such a dark place emotionally, and feeling such excruciating pain.
YorkieTalk is clearly such a warm environment, and having just checked up on Riley, and having shed so many tears, as I am touched beyond measure, reading your notes to me (I didn't expect any replies to my post). I truly cannot express my gratitude enough, and hope in the morning, I can adequately do so, and hope my post to you all, resurfaces.
I would never ask for help unless I felt it absolutely necessary, and wouldn't know how to go about doing so here other than posting (I must read about this tomorrow in the Rules and Regulations of the site, as I do not want to come off as a pity case, but rather, someone in need of guidance through a scenario in which I feel like the WORST Dad to Riley. I pray I have the energy to figure out what I did wrong in my banned(?) post, after an exhausting week of daily treatment). Anything that would allow me to keep my angel, would warm my soul, but I struggle if this is the right thing longterm, if I cannot give him every fiber of my being, which is what I promised to him and to myself. Being alone is so hard.
Only blessings to every single member of this community. Love and evermore thanks from a broken heart and spirit in Queens, NY. |