Well on top of no spirit, I am getting guilt because Jon has to work Christmas Eve and the day after. And to drive to my family is a 2 hr trip on a good day and from where I am to LI, it is killer. I do not want to not be with Jon because I want to celebrate with him. His father is not coming up this year so he would be alone. And it is not even Mom giving me grief. It is my sisters. This is not helping. Last year I didn't put up a tree because I had 2 kittens. It is bad with one but I definitely would see two looking at me from the tree. I am really trying to get into the spirit but not happening. |