[anniernc]

Haven't been on here in awhile but was just trying to find something to do to try to ease my mind some tonight so thought I'd read some post on YT. I lost my dad this morning. He has not been well for the last 1 1/2 years but really got much sicker the last few months. It doesn't matter if you expecting it or not the hurt is still the same. He was a good good man and he put up such a fight for so long but I guess he was just tired. The sad thing is his birthday is Sunday and that is the day we will be burying him. I feel so guilty because I was going to his house yesterday afternoon and was on the way to the car but the wind was bad and I was afraid to get out in it and drive so I decided to wait and go this morning since my daughter said he was sleeping and doing better. I got to the house this morning and the nurse said he had stopped breathing about 4-5 mins before I got there. I tried CPR and the paramedics got there right after me but he was already gone. I just hope he knows how sorry I am that I wasn't there when he needed me. I love you daddy.