You will never know for sure what caused the kidney's to fail. Whatever it was it certainly was not your fault. You were doing what you thought was best for your little girl. You had no way of knowing what was going on inside her body. Kidney issues are very serious and can be caused by a variety of reasons. You were faced with one of the hardest decisions anyone ever has to make. Most of us have been through it for one reason or another.
Try to realize this: She knows you did what was best for her. She knows that you did your very best for her and that you loved her very much. She would never want you to suffer because of this.
Give yourself some time. Things will get better. Refuse the negative thoughts. You did what you could do and no one could have done more.
Remember that there are many other little angels out there looking for someone to love them and hopefully you will eventually find just the right one. |