[yorkietalkjilly]

I forgot about your little boy! I forgot you were being smart and reaching out for a doggie now, while you are still hurting so and just when you need puppy kisses and a refreshed heart. But I know the anger you're feeling, too, at least to a small degree and I can imagine in some ways how deep that anger must be. Trying to quell it is impossible but in time it, too, starts to fade and your equilibrium returns, you rage less and begin to accept that people are thoughtless and make frequent, huge mistakes that hurt others all the time. We all do it and, knock wood, so far ours haven't cost lives and maimed, etc., often but for the grace of God.

Writing him a letter will probably help but may just create a situation with him so try not to make it too inflammatory as he'll keep it and use it if anything comes up in the future. Maybe you write two - one how you really feel and you publish it here for all to read and think about - all who have big dogs or may get a big one so that they are reminded what the result of not watching and keeping bigger dogs properly trained or confined or restrained can mean in the life of others if the dog goes off. Our little Yorkies can get loose, attack and do very little harm to people or dogs but when a big, powerful dog goes rogue, it frequently ends so badly for others and too often, the most innocent. The other letter, go ahead and send it and let him know what his dog did, how it affected your baby, your peace, your life, and maybe there will be an unsullied spot somewhere in his heart that will see the pain and anguish and make him think differently, take some responsibility and reign in his dog now and with future dogs. IDK, but do get your feelings out and then when your new baby comes, life will start to get better and better and healing will begin, work its magic and you will go forward. It's the very best way of all to keep Ana's memory and that's to live well because you had her in your life.