 How to you stop re-living a bad moment
How do you stop the anger...
I spent hours last night thinking of Ana's LAST BREATH... I felt her very last breath... and as comforting as that is suppose to be... it haunts my every waking moment...
MY ANGER for the man across the street - I thought I could leave to God... and yet the wound opens every time I get home...
ITs like being robbed.. I feel I can never feel comfortable in my yard... I can never take Cooper for a walk without a BAT?... He can never just be let out the door to greet my husband at his truck....
I dont want to take someones pet but... THIS was a vicious attack... and I dont understand...
I dont know where to go with my grief... so I come here just to vent... because my every moment these last two weeks seems sad... Walking around others who dont have any idea how hurt I am... putting on that face at work...
IS KILLING ME!!!
I cannot wait for my little boy to come home... I think he will be and additional blessing.. not a replacement...
AND YET... I want Ana back... I WANT her sleeping tucked in my tummy like she did every morning....
now... im just empty
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