[yorkiefan_]

Shellie, please don't think yourself an unfit mother to your babies and give Cassie away, because I doubt there will ever be another who loves her the way you do. Life is so fragile and it can be taken away so easily. It doesn't make you a bad person or an unfit owner. I have never been in the situation you're in, but my brother has. When we were kids he killed our pug one night when in the middle of the night he put his legs over little Pugs' head with the blanket on, suffocating our little guy. He was beyond devastated and it took him so long to get over it, but he is an awesome person who loves animals so much and does so much to save them (he rescues and rehomes lots of dogs who would otherwise be gassed at shelters). And he sounded like you do for so long, but we just had to tell him over and over that although what happened was truly horrible, it was an accident and they can happen to any of us. It's so heartbreaking to read about little Muffin; I mean this has to be the hardest thread to read I have ever seen here. What makes it so hard to read is that you're beating yourself up so badly when every one of us who has read your other threads knows you're an incredible mother to your pups. We have no reason to lie to you.