Thanks, it is nice to hear that I am not being over dramatic like my husband says. I know this makes him sound bad, but he really isn't, he just doesn't see why I am so worried.
My logical side keeps telling me that it is better to have it done now before it causes a bigger problem, that even though she doesn't seem like she is hurting from it. the x-rays show that there is definitely a problem and it will never fix itself or get any better.
Then there is my "dog mommy" side that just keeps thinking "what if I have chosen to do this surgery and she doesn't make it out of anesthetic and passes away from this?" Or what if she gets an infection or gets hurt, I don't know how I would handle losing her let alone feeling like it was a choice I made.
I am trying to stay calm and keep busy. We have to go out today and buy her a carrier and some emergency supplies for when she comes home. When she was spayed she refused to eat or drink so our vet recommended having karo syrup, pedialyte, baby food,and some sort of wet dog food on hand just in case.
We don't have a pen for her, so we are just using my dad's old crate he used for his lab so we can give her a pee pad and something comfy to lay on. For the most part though, she will be in her carrier beside me, I will not be letting her out of my sight. I am so scared about helping her pee, but the vet said she will show us how and won't let her leave until she pees. That honestly may change though. I am okay with her staying the night after surgery there so she can wake up and they can make sure she is okay but they don't have over night supervision. They close at 9pm and open at 8am, so someone is there from 7am-10pm and they have someone come in and check on them.
Sophie is a princess and I have a very strong feeling that she will not eat or pee for them. She wouldn't after she was spayed until she was home for a little while...she barely eats for us when she is sick or scared, so I would rather they keep her the first night but then let us have her the next day. She is definitely a mommy's girl...okay that is a lie, she is a huge daddy's girl...but my husband will never admit it. I kind of think he is just as scared as I am but he thinks he needs to stay calm for me...he has been very irritable since we left the vet on Thursday, so I am trying to cut him some slack.
On Monday I think I am going to start a post in a different section documenting her recovery. I know that kind of post really helped me read and I think it will be therapeutic to be able to keep a record of it.
I really just want to hear the call, "Sophie is out of surgery and waking up right now, everything is fine"...I am so scared of her not making it. |