I feel exactly the same.. I want to die. I lost my lovely beautiful best friend ever Tootsie. I feel guilty as hell. She was intelligent she talked to me. We went everywhere together, she attended meetings at my office and travelled with me. We had long walks, and she was very energetic. I was moving house to have a garden for her. I forgot to give her the tick control. She got a fever and developed anemia. Only to find she was bitten. I tried everything blood transfusion intra venous saline and glucose. She got better for a day and then just as we were going to give her her antibiotic she collapsed in pain. I don't know what to do. I feel like I lost a limb or an arm. I walk around crying non stop, and don't have a purpose to live.It has been 3 days now and I am not getting better, I cannot go to work or meet or speak to anyone. I am devastated. She was a healthy 11 years old, I know she was growing older but I wished she died peacefully of old age. I have no one to blame but myself. I was busy and did not notice ... I cannot live with this I need her to forgive me. what do I do? I don't know what to do everything reminds me of her. Everything. |