We're only human so don't be too hard on yourself. There were couple times when I spanked Magnus's behind. The first time, he bolted out the door when I opened to throw something outside. Ran right into the street where a car was zooming our way. I screamed at the top of my lungs and luckily, the car slowed and stopped. I swear I nearly had a heart attack.
I'm a lot more careful now but there were couple times when he bolted. But I think he sort of learned b/c he'll go to the neighbor's yard or run up the sidewalk. Never onto the streets. I've had to sort of train my mom to make sure he won't be able to bolt so things have been good for over 2 years.
I'm glad Jackson is safe. One can only imagine the heartbreak if something did happen to him.