[darlenejmnz]

If you guys have been following my last thread then you know about my 10 week old Joey and how he wouldn't eat and had to be force fed.

This afternoon I tried to stand him up and I noticed that he wouldn't stand up without falling sideways and that when I picked him up his head would just roll back, he just felt very weak. I immediately took him to my vet who immediately sent me to the closest animal hospital (they are a clinic and were going to close soon).

My baby has low blood glucose and was in shock.

I feel terrible I ask myself what I could have done differently. I woke up every 3/4 hours in the middle of the night and force fed him, I even force fed him water since I felt he wasn't drinking enough. I had nutrical and 50% dextrose readily available and gave him those constantly. And still I failed him. I have never cried so hard in my life or prayed as honestly as I did today.

I had a $900 bill which I was no where prepared for I called my mom crying to lend me some money. Btw this hospital charges 3 times as much as everyone in the area but what can I do in memorial day all vet offices will be closed.

The thing is if its just the low blood sugar they have him on IV's and they are intravenously giving him glucose so he should be okay but the doctor is telling me he has some kind of parasite that is making him not eat. He was just in the vet yesterday has been with his vet every day since I have gotten him so why wouldn't she know of this. She checked a stool sample 3 times (three different days) and told me that apart from a tapeworm he was clean and that our only concern was that he wouldn't eat. He did get a vaccine for the tapeworms.

The doctor at the hospital was quick to give me the three choices Joey had: 1. Pay the 900 to keep him overnight giving him a 50-60% survival rate.
2. Treat me as an outpatient (saving me money) giving him only some drugs and sending me home (this had a less than 10% survival rate)
3. euthanasia

I could never kill my dog and live with myself. I ask myself if I could have done anything differently: be more vigilant, cuddle him more, feed him more/more often, keep him with his mommy longer. If Joey were to pass I could never own another dog again.

The doctor told me i would need around 3 grand to keep him as long as Joey needs to be ok. And even then he says their is a chance he will not make it.

If you guys know of any clinics/ places that will help me maybe lower cost I don't know.

I called his breeder and his siblings are fine (brother was sent to forever home and sister is still with her). If he has some sort of parasite how could he have gotten it? Apart from the vet he has not been outside.

I even started to think maybe the doctor is pulling my leg/ exaggerating to get more money. I mean this parasite thing came out of nowhere and now its is life or death?

I don't know why I wrote this maybe I just want to rant maybe I'm looking for words of encouragement but in the end it will be god's will. I literally have no money left and will be selling my iPad tomorrow for some extra money but otherwise I don't know what to do.

I plan to keep him overnight at the hospital and then take him to his breeder she will take him to her vet for a second opinion and if he makes it she will keep him for me for a few weeks.

I need words of encouragement, prayers, advice, anything that could help ease the pain that I currently feel in my heart.