Oh I have tears reading this but please do not blame yourself. Sebastian knew he had a wonderful mom that loved him. You have to try to stop thinking of the 'what ifs 'which I did when I had to say goodbyes to my dear Keally.Sending hugs to you and please think of those wonderful memories of Sebastian. It takes time to heal and it will take awhile.Just remember those good days and slowly time will heal you. Susan |