need prayers for an old timer. my little man Deever is 16 1/2. Before I say what's wrong with him, it may be easier to just say what isn't wrong. He is not seeing well in one eye because of a cataract, and his hearing is not very good. He has an enlarged heart, a mass in his lung, he has bad coughing spells, fainting and confusion issues at times so we do not let him in the yard any more. We retrained him to go out on the front porch where he'll have a roof over his head. During the day, he's wants to go out every half hour. Thank goodness my husband and I are retired and can give him constant attention. He's a pretty big guy, but he's down from 14 pounds to just over 10 pounds now, no matter how much we feed him. He also has a mass in the prostate and bladder. He was diagnosed last August with cancer and the vet gave him a month or so to live. We changed his diet, and give him K9 supplements. For the most part, he is still a hungry little bugger, eats everything you give him most days, and doesn't seem to be in pain. But this past week, he started crying when he wants to jump down off the couch. I don't know if he's just afraid, or if something is starting to go into his bones. He can't really exercisen too much without fainting so I think his muscles are getting weak. He had a really bad coughing spell yesterday. I thought OMG this is it. So mad at myself for freezing while my husband held him. He just keeps beating the odds and because he's outdone all the vets expectations I've had this false sense of security. Hid bloodwork is excellent, but the vet keeps telling me he's on borrowed time and told us to continue to spoil him, and that most likely he will go on his own. Then she said You know you have to put him to sleep if he gets worse???? what am I stupid? He will let me know when it's time. Sorry, I need to vent. I had to run back home to my mothers house 100 miles away recently for a month. She needed a pacemaker, and I feel terrible saying this, but I was so upset every day that I may never see my dog again. I couldn't wait to get home. I guess I need some sleep. We were doing shifts, but we tried something new. Great as he is, Deever now lets us put diapers and baby onesies on him at bedtime and is willing to sleep in his bed outside our door so we can sleep. He adapts to everything. I don't know how this little guy is still standing. I'll will never, ever have another dog like him. So very upset. I think it's hitting me. I am very grateful to have found this web site. please pray that my little guys goes peacefully. |