Oh, I am so so sorry for your loss. I don't have answers to your questions either and understand your need to look for closure. I do hope you find what you're looking for if it will help you deal with your grief. In the meantime I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that you gave your sweet baby over nine happy years and that she was able to pass at home and in the place where she felt safest, in her mommy's arms. You will see her again. Wisdom will be waiting for you at the bridge.
Hugs,
Diana and the Scoobster |