Oh hunny I just read your beautiful post, with my Louie laying by my side. I really feel your pain. What a horrible thing to go thru...losing your little love. I am crying right now from your post. It was so beautiful. Im sure that your baby is smiling down on you and wants you to be happy and strong...Please do that for him. My Louie and Bella just got an extra hug and kiss because of you. They thank you!