Oh Bless, I cried reading your post. You are very lucky to still feel your little one close to you, our lils have such a huge impact on our lives.
My mother passed away in December, she was struck by a car and passed instantly... she had alzheimer's and was walking on the turnpike.
When we finally got home the next morning for a few hours sleep, I drifted off with both my Lils licking my forhead and arms to soothe me.
I pray you find peace that he still near your and will always be