I am so very sorry you have reached this time in the relationship with your precious little man. In the back of your mind, you klnow what the outcome is going to be, but your heart is not ready for that path. I tried to make that decision for my Aija, when she seemed she was no longer happy to be alive....I called my vet and they planned to spend the time after the office closes....we go into a special room...all veryloving....I took her and was bawling my heart out, and she looked up at me, like "what are we doing here, lets go home....I am ready for my snack and bed." I was looking in her eyes and she was telling me, she was NOT ready. She was not struggling to breathe and she was in no pain, so that was not an issue for me to get around....she was 16 and just could not get around much, and wanted to sleep most ofthe day...she had congestive heart failure but was managed well with her medicine....I just felt like she was not enjoying life anymore....SHE looked into my face and told me otherwise. So, I did not go thru it and we went home. Aija was with me another 8 months....and one night, she looked into my eyes and the look in those precious eyes told me, "momma, I am tired and I need to go now..."and I held my darling girl continously, on my chest, so my heartbeat would be the last thing she heard, for the next 14 hours, rocking and singing to her, petting her, kissing on her and crying, and she died peacefully in my arms...no struggle, no pain, just tired..... I honestly believe they tell you when they are ready to go....when it is easier for them to let go of this life and cross over, than it is for them to fight to stay, they will look into your eyes and you will know..... I pray for strength and courage and peace for you and your baby boy for the time you have left together.... |