Your pain will lesson with time, but will never go completely away. My Delsi (that I had for 16 years) died 8 years ago, but if I dwell too much on her it still brings me to tears. I like to remember all the wonderful and funny times we all shared together as a family.
Your baby, unfortunately, doesn't have a voice, so we have to be that voice. On my license plate it says
PUPPYMILLS.COM be their voice. I pray that one day our companion animals will have all the rights as any human family member. It's getting closer all the time.
Make your baby happy by getting up and doing something that she would be happy with. Maybe put together a collage of pictures to hang on a little quilt.
Blessing to you.