It's very scary

. My Mom died of cancer when she was 44 (she got sick at 42). I was only 19-21 at the time...very devastating, to say the very least.
Now, I'm 44. Even though I knew, intellectually, that '44' was young for her to die -- it was only as I aged that I fully realized just HOW young this age is. My God, it's just soooo horribly young.