[yorkietalkjilly]

I'm so sorry you lost little Brandi and it has affected you so terribly. I remember once before out of curiosity I just Googled pet/dog death support of something like that and found several websites that were specifically for hurting petlovers who had lost pets. I didn't stay long on any one of them as they were so heartbreaking and I can't recall if one seemed better but perhaps someone else here has used one. If not, perhaps you could just look in on a few of the top listed ones and see which one is a good fit.

You might need a face-to-face counselor or support group and they are widely available in most larger cities and towns. I think if you call SPCA or the Humane Society or vet in your area, they probably know of some if you can't find any on Google. I pray that your pain and hurt begin to subside before too long and soon all you have are wonderful memories. You now your little Brandi would want you to know the love and companionship of another dog but you need to find a way to get yourself to the point where you can allow yourself to accept one without feeling guilty or subconsciously rejecting it for not being Brandi. In time and with some loving guidance and support, maybe you can. God bless you and keep posting on YT when you can. You need connection with others.