I'm so sorry for your struggles. I know it is very hard to loose such a precious baby. I feel bad for you also that you attempted suicide, however am happy that you didn't succeed. I had a son who committed suicide 3 weeks before his 18th birthday and believe me, the pain I bear in my heart for the rest of my life has to be as bad as the pain he felt before he left.
I know they say "time" heals everything, but don't feel bad to grieve. Take as long as you need and then try to focus on the happy times you had with your little one when you are ready. |