Your post touched me so much and you don't have to apologize for bringing up your little Kelli....It shows how much you love her and is still in your heart....I'm so sorry for your loss....you must miss her so much.
I've posted this before... but I want to dedicate it to your Kelli....I think it's just beautiful.
Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, i do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow;
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush;
I am the swift uplifting rush...of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
** author Unknown **
Hugs to you.....