My Mother has been given 6 month to life. Some of you and I hope at least a few of you may be wondering where I have been lately. Well I didn't fall off of the face of the earth or anything but I have been quite pre occupied with my mother and doctor after doctor coming and going.
After a very long and stressful three weeks in and out of the hospital with my 71 yr old mother after a heart attach than back with Pneumonia and Carbon monoxide poisoning on top of her being in the final stages of Emphysema. We though we were going to loose her, But not her.... she's too darn ornery to die. I guess it wasn't here time and I am so grateful to have today, tomorrow and the next day for as many weeks, months and hopefully years that god will allow her to be in our lives.
She's been home for over a week now with supervision and my mothers is doing much better. She is a bit less active than she was but she's getting there. She's home now on hospice care and not happy about it. She knows that she needs the help but doesn't agree that she needs to be on hospice care. I happen to agree but it wasn't my decision. The hospital was very persistent when asking about getting her home even if that meant hospice care. Its a lot to ask of everyone to give up of their own time so hospice care stepped in and is there for her for certain things like baths, suppling her oxygen, a bed and a bed side potty. She has so many family members and close friends that were there for her to show how much that she is loved. We have a great support system in place for the first few weeks who are staying with her during the days and at night if necessary. We are checking in on her and my 82 yr old step father.
She has been given a six months expectance to live out her life. It just wasn't her time to go, but when it is....my siblings and I are prepared. We all know what is expected of us and we plan to follow her wishes as asked (DNR). We know her time is limited and I expect to be there for her in any way that I can even if it means sacrificing my own families needs for the time being. I have to be the strong one, I have to be there for her up to her last days on this earth. I have to be because if I let myself think about it too often or dwell on the inevitable... I will crumble. I know that when she leaves us it wont be easy but it will end her year of suffering and will be for the best.
I know that she has been a gracious, respectful, strong and honest women who has always been there for others and when she goes knocking on heavens doors that she will be welcome with open arms.
It is comforting to me knowing that she will always be with me in Spirit!
__________________ Mommy to: Quincy, & Ruby Bella / Miah & Brandi Gone but Never Forgotten |