Ok...
So I take Raelle and Orion for a check up and flea meds, as we have an outbreak here (no idea where they came from)
Anyway the vet is just in LOVE with Raelle! My miss Diva! She checked out health wise ok, and got her annual rabies shot....He is checking in her ears...
they are floppy, they never stood. He says hang on I'm seein something here..I'll re-check.

He gets a cotton swab and swabs here ears...what looked like engine grease came out...it was BLACK and greasy looking.


He is goin to check for mites..be right back.
He comes back and says no mites, but a severe ear infection that looks like it has been raging for months!!!

He asked me has she been scratching her ears...yup, but I figured it was the dagone fleas!
She also has been rubbing her ears on the carpet...I figured she was bein quirky....OMG I'm a terrible mommy!!!

She has been in pain for months and I had no idea...how in the world did I NOT KNOW...my poor baby, I feel just awful!
I wondered why she always smelled kinda funny...fiance says its my imagination, cuz he didn't smell it. Vet says that smell ...kinda funky/cheesy/sour smell, was the ear infection...I started noticing that smell back in May!
I had checked her ears and they weren't red or anything, and she never even flinced!
Sorry for the rant, the guilt is gonna be the death of me....
She is on Otomax...such a little trooper, lets mommy put in the drops, without moving a mucsle...then when I'm done she gives mommy thank you kisses...she is curled up in my lap, fast asleep while i sit here in tears trying not to wake her....