[capt_noonie]

Thank you all for the thoughts and prayers and thank you Susi for updating for me. I tried several times in the last few days to come and update but it was just too hard for me. I miss that sweet little guy so much. It's not the same here without him. I cried so much my head and eyes hurt for two days. I felt like a jerk for complaining my head hurt when what that little guy went through was a million times worse. he was so smart and sweet, and such a funny character. He went through so much I just can't believe he is gone. Ultimately it was not my decision on what to do bc he was not my dog but a foster. But I loved him like he was my own. I miss him so much. He was only in our lives since April but it seemed like he was always here. i just can't get the image of how frail and helpless he looked right before he passed. I just feel like a total failure and that I let him down. And I can't believe I didn't take him in right away after his first seizure. I didn't even know that it was a seizure. I keep thinking about all the things that I could of done or should of done and if I did maybe he would still be here now next to me.

Thank you all again for your love and support. I think I am going to be taking a break from YT for a little bit.