I am so very sorry for your loss!
I got a bit emotional over this one...thinking about my own loss. Its never easy loosing someone who was such a big part of your every day life. It gets better, when or how long down the road is hard to say but it does. My Sheena has been gone for 14 years and I still get teary eyes when I think about her and I get a little chuckle thinking about the good times that we shared the 15 years that she was a part of our lives.