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Originally Posted by buffylove  It's been about a month since our little Buffy passed away. Everyday I wake up and it takes a second for reality to set in. I still feel like she's going to be there when I get home from work and I'm just so heartbroken.
I'm having a really hard time dealing with this and I'm just wondering how long it took for other people to start feeling .. not better but, less devastated.
Not only do I miss her, but I feel guilty-Like it was my fault. She depended on me to take care of her how could I have not known she was sick. Did I miss the signs? Was there something I could have done. The day she passed I didn't come home right away - I went to the grocery store AND the bank. If I had come home on time maybe she would still be with us :*(
When we got home that night Buffy was laying on her side - unresponsive. We had to rush her in to the emergency Vet. ( I've already posted about this so I won't go into detail ) She passed away the next day and we were told she had Addison's Disease.
I'm just so sad and angry. |
This is so sad. You are experiencing the same emotions I feel right now about losing my baby Ace, who was just four. I am not going to go into detail again, but I know the guilt you are feeling, I feel the same way. I feel like if I had taken him to an emergency Vet at first instead of the closest vet, he may be here right now. If only I had taken him a day sooner to the Vet maybe his little body would've been stronger to survive surgery. I know our situations are different but unique in that we are experincing guilt and grief.
I wake up every morning hoping it may still be a dream and I'm going to go downstairs and see his little face. Ace was barely three pounds but healthy. Hubby and I didn't want to crush him at night so he had his own bed. He always cuddled all day and late night though. I still have his little food dish in the kitchen filled with dog food, I can't get rid of it yet. It's so lonely and sad in the house it just feels surreal. I'm thinking about you and wish you the best...