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acesmom79 · 07-27-2012, 08:22 AM

I just lost my 4 yr. old baby Ace last Thursday on 7/19/21012. He passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. He had an obstruction and did not survive after his surgery. He ate a hairball half the size of a fist. I woke up today and the waves of loneliness washed over me again.
When I go downstairs, I see his little memorial we made for him and I think how unfair and cruel life can be. When you have the love of the best and most beautiful noble creature in the world and then it's ripped out from you, it's the worst. All I can see is his face looking so sad when we picked him up from the first vet then rushed him to the ER. He was looking at me from in side the cage, so sad. Hubby said he was disoriented from the morphine but I can't help but feel he think we left him. The idea of my baby being and pain and thinking we left him is unbearable.
On the way to the ER we told him how much we loved him and I kissed him. I didn't want him to think I was giving up on him so I didn't say goodbye and I didn't kiss him as much as I should have. I told him a big german shepard was moving down the street and he needed to get better to protect me,lol. Ace hated big dogs, was fearless. I wished I would've kissed him harder and more while I had the chance. If only i knew and could go back.
The emptiness in the house is bad. All we have left are memories and pictures, and videos which I can't yet look at. I know Ace is at peace but he didn't deserve any pain. If I could I would've taken his pain. I will show you guys more pictures of Ace when I get more familiar with this site. You will see how beautiful he was, well is.

07-27-2012, 08:22 AM	#1
acesmom79 Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Pittsburgh, PA, USA Posts: 76	When all you have left is memories and pictures... I just lost my 4 yr. old baby Ace last Thursday on 7/19/21012. He passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. He had an obstruction and did not survive after his surgery. He ate a hairball half the size of a fist. I woke up today and the waves of loneliness washed over me again. When I go downstairs, I see his little memorial we made for him and I think how unfair and cruel life can be. When you have the love of the best and most beautiful noble creature in the world and then it's ripped out from you, it's the worst. All I can see is his face looking so sad when we picked him up from the first vet then rushed him to the ER. He was looking at me from in side the cage, so sad. Hubby said he was disoriented from the morphine but I can't help but feel he think we left him. The idea of my baby being and pain and thinking we left him is unbearable. On the way to the ER we told him how much we loved him and I kissed him. I didn't want him to think I was giving up on him so I didn't say goodbye and I didn't kiss him as much as I should have. I told him a big german shepard was moving down the street and he needed to get better to protect me,lol. Ace hated big dogs, was fearless. I wished I would've kissed him harder and more while I had the chance. If only i knew and could go back. The emptiness in the house is bad. All we have left are memories and pictures, and videos which I can't yet look at. I know Ace is at peace but he didn't deserve any pain. If I could I would've taken his pain. I will show you guys more pictures of Ace when I get more familiar with this site. You will see how beautiful he was, well is.