We here know all the feelings and emptiness, loneliness and aching pain you feel. In my experience, it can take months before you lose many of the acute phases of deep grief and guilt - which most pet owners deal with in some form or fashion after a pet's death. When you have more good days than bad and the bad days are not quite so hard, you know that time is performing one of its best functions - helping you heal. When memories start to make you smile rather than cry and you stop repetitively reliving coming home from work and finding her, the E.R. vet visit and that night's horrors, you know you are going to get through this. It really does get better.
__________________  Jeanie and Tibbe One must do the best one can. You may get some marks for a very imperfect answer: you will certainly get none for leaving the question alone. C. S. Lewis |