I know i havent been on in about a month everyone I am sorry, I have had a lot going on.
We lost Ellie Mae Yesterday at 3 am. She went in my arms while we slept. She was tired and could not fight anymore. I cannot describe the pain I feel but I can say it is one I have never felt before. I have been crying for since yesterday non-stop. I already miss her like crazy and sometimes I dont know if I am going to make it through. I know she is not hurting anymore but the greedy part of me wants her back so bad. Its just not fair.
