[mscat]

I am very sorry for your loss. 20 yrs ago I had a beloved kitty I loved with all my heart, One morning I crossed a busy street to commute to work, well my cat tried to follow me,and she was hit by a car, twice. Right in front of my eyes. i remember my reaction, i was bent over and let out blood curling screams, a stranger, woman grabbed me and held onto me, and a man risked his life crossing the busy street and placed my kitty in the medium, out of the road. I wsa a total mess, And at that time just found out I was also pregnant. At work I was so hysterirical They let me go home. I had this kitty the day he was born, watched his momma feed him and when big enough took him, he was my first "baby" I kept thinking to myself, how the hell can I take care of a human baby when I could not save my kitty? I blamed myself, and it was horible. For me it took yrs. He was so special to me, just a regular gray taby but to me he was more then that. I can now think of the fond memories with him and the emotional pain has subsided after yrs of regret. I have pictures of him, and now can see them without becomming upset.
You will neeed to allow yourself plenty of time to grieve, do not rush it. it is a process. I would not advise replacing your puppy right away. If you have pictures of your yorkie, make a little scrapbook, or keepsake of her. She will always be in your heart, but as for now, let yourself be sad, and take all the time you need. In time the emotional pain will not be so unbearable, remember the good times, and try not to dwell on your puppy's death.