Thank you so much, everyone. It helps just to be able to get out some of the hurt and feeling of, could I have done more? I really feel like though, that we wanted too long. We just couldn't let her go. I felt like we should have a while back but dh thought as long as she was eating and drinking, she was fine. When I heard her cry out yesterday and ran in and seen her having a seizure and chewing her leg, I thought I would die. She would not let go, and I was afraid she would bite me and she was biting her leg until it was bleeding. I will never get that sight out of my mind. I'm sorry, I know I'm rambling but yesterday I was like I was in shock and today I am just numb. Pray for us because we need it. She was so apart of our lives for so long. Pray for my little Dudley, Lexi, and Kayla too. They have looked everywhere for her. THis is sooooo hard. |