Thank you everyone for your help and encouraging words
I have been going insane, calling everyone, emailing, researching, etc. I called Dr. Tobias as Gemmy suggested and wow! I was shocked that her office called me back at home and the nurse gave me so much guidance and support.
To make a long story short, it was more than frustrating for me to go through this and I don't know what would've happened if I couldn't count on you for help and guidance, so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I know that all of you have your own problems, as Gemy does, yet you came over to assist me and my baby-boy. that makes it even more special to me.
There were moments were I didn't know what to do and thought I would burst out screaming
There's such a thing as information overload and I was there. I realized that I had to get a grip when I hit rock bottom and just started to cry after watching some Youtube videos about LS and babies suffering from it.
Needless to say, I freaked out pretty badly in my study room, where I thought I had some privacy
Apparently, I was sobbing so loud they heard me upstairs. I heard tiny paws doing the 60-mile dash down the stairs and then somebody was scratching desperately at my leg
It was my baby boy, Nicky. He wanted me to pick him up and kept insisting until I did. I picked him up, put him in my lap and he started to kiss me like a mental patient, as if he knew something was wrong
He stood there on my lap all the time. Where ever I went he followed, he wouldn't leave my side for one second all day long. I thought, okay this is twisted!
I'm supposed to be taking care of them not the other way around, get a grip.
So, I've managed to stay afloat enough to take Nicky and Nini to the holistic vet, where we did all the preparations to have a specialist at Cornell University Hospital for Animals see Nicky in the middle of June. (Nini's very healthy, btw, just a bad case of the 'blues' because her brother's getting too much attention---I'm guessing
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The vet says there's no need to have an emergency appointment, we could wait. It looks like I caught this in its early stages and as a consequence time is on our side
Cornell U. wants to do its own tests, starting with blood work and then the ultrasound with Doppler. Our vet says it was Cornell U. who came up with the LS diagnosis and so they specialize in this area, which gives me some comfort as to a correct diagnosis.
I'm still worried sick, but with the difference that now I know what to expect and I'm kind of ready for it. We're leaving for NY a couple of days before and staying close to the Hospital in case they decide to do my baby's surgery right away (should he need one, I'm hoping he doesn't).
I'm trying to cover everything and be ready for anything. I'm very hopeful and I've promised my little one the day I scared him with my sobbing that I'll be strong for him because I know how worthless I would be to him if I'm freaked out stiff
Again, thank you...you have no idea what your help has meant to me
I'll keep you updated.