[Mee-sha]

yes its my own fault for not giving her tough love from the start, because now when she feels confined (ex playpen) she freaks out. my father will be coming home at 2pm on his lunch to check on her, i work too far away to check on her myself. i'm so thankful i have my parents to watch her. i guess its one good thing about having to live at home again this year lol. theres not much she can get into in the area she will be in, its all babyproofed, i guess i will have to go through her toys and leave only ones i trust 100%.. the only problem is she can now get up on the sofas, so maybe i will add the downstairs sofa cushions on them to make it too high for her to jump on. i think it is going to be much harder on me than her, if i'm not in her sight she usually just sleeps or lays there looking depressed, then as soon as she sees me she acts like crazy hyper puppy wanting me to play with her aha. i want to set up a webcam to watch her, i'm going to have to look into how to do that, huhhh i'm almost in tears jsut thinking about her being home all day by herself.