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Like I have said, I didn't make the decision lightly and if I absolutely have to I will rehome Somi instead. But she just went through LP surgery and I wouldn't think of rehoming her until she is completely healed. Also, my roommate has two cats that Joli does not particularily get along with. And I go home to visit my mom as often as I can given it is a 6 hour drive. And with Joli attacking her two maltese it makes the trip less than fun. It puts extreme amounts of stress on me to go visit my family.

I have quite literally maxed out any amount of credit I could aquire to pay for Somi's surgery and have no money to pay for a trainer or meds for Joli. I didn't have money before Somi's surgery and now I don't even have any more credit options either. Joli needs more care than I can give her at this point.

Also, I have always seen myself as a multipet person "when I grow up" and though I would definitely give that thought up for Joli I would not give up having kids which I plan on doing in the next few years. I love her very much and go out of my way a lot for my pets, but I would not decide to not have "real" kids because of an agressive dog. But since I feel like it would not be safe for her to be around kids I could never have kids with her. She needs to go to a home with grown kids or someone who really doesn't want kids.

I really don't know how much longer I can deal with this situation and really wish people would stop trying to make me feel bad for the decision I have made. I did not just randomly wake up one day and decide "I don't want my dog anymore". I have been dealing with this since November and realized we couldn't keep living with the amount of stress it was causing me and danger Somi was always in not to mention the amount of stress and constant adrinaline Joli must have.

Thanks to all the people who have been helping me, but if you are just posting to tell me to do things differently please just don't post.

also, her name is JOLI. It is based on the Korean word for sleepy because when we got her at 5 weeks she slept a lot and my bf is Korean and I wanted to give her a Korean name. it is not Jolie which is french. A common mistake, but is one of those little things that gets irritating.