Thanks so much for your kind words of support. My DD finally understood, I was lying in bed curled up with Chloe and crying my heart out, she came in a hugged me and told me she loved me. Just as I thought, I am a devestated and she is doing so much better than I am (thank God!). My DH came home and just held me, he said he is proud of me for letting her go and that he wasnt sure if I would be able to let her go. She has been such a huge part of my life for 14 years and it was one of the toughest things I have ever had to do. The house feels so strange with one less heartbeat. She layed down most of the time but even though she slept alot the house feels so much emptier and oddly quiet without her.
This one is going to take a while to come to terms with. |