I am so very sorry, Sandy. I wish I could take away your pain. I know how much you love your baby girl and how much you don't want to let her go. You have been so devoted to Tina's care and also her happiness, and I know you'd do anything for Tina and your other beautiful babies. Ashley also found it so comforting when I held her close to my body as if she were a baby. She'd just look into my eyes and kiss my nose. We walked for miles each day, mostly with her walking but some late night and early morning walks she was ecstatic just being carried close. Ashley's health wasn't failing (that I knew of) and she was still very active, but I knew that, because she was close to seventeen and the dangers of caring for her with dementia, she wasn't going to live forever. Still, I could do nothing to prepare myself for losing my sweet little baby. I kept relying on my vet to tell me if I was looking out for Ashley's interests over my own, but he kept assuring me that she was a happy little girl who was so responsive and attached to us that she had a good quality of life. I truly believe that was the case also. I don't know how to advise you, but I do know that I will be there for you if you need me. You can call me any time, day or night, and I will support any decision you feel is best for Tina. I think you know how much I care and understand. You and your babies are in my thoughts and prayers. |