[danniko]

I made a post a few months ago asking for prayers for my mom who was fighting ovarian cancer.

Things got bad really fast and my family was called in today and she passed within 6 hours of us being there. She apparently wasn't in any pain (I have my doubts, the noises she was making were scary) and it was definitely her time. The cancer had spread to her bowels and the chemo wasn't working anymore for her...

This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do...I have never seen a body after it was dead or heard the noises they can make during...I think I am actually traumatized. I keep picturing her lying there and it keeps hitting me that she is never coming back and I will never be able to sit around and laugh with her again.

She was my best friend - the person that I called first when something good or bad happened to me, I keep wishing I would just wake up and this is just a bad dream..

But it isn't and we have to go to the funeral home in the morning...I can't do this and my husband keeps telling me I will get through this, but right now I feel like I am never going to be able to handle this. I just want her back, I miss her so much already.