[southernbelle04]

Katie Scarlett has truly been a blessing in my life. After years of trying to get pregnant, numerous visits to doctors, visitis to infertility specialists...I was ready to just give up and never have children. I want a skin kid so bad, but I have come to accept that it may not be in the cards for me. My husband wants children really bad, but he isn't frustrated with me or anything. After seeing a reproductive endocrinologists, we found out that he is completely normal...the problem lies with me. They still are not 100% sure what it is. But after all that time I fell into such a deep depression. I just felt so helpless. I didn't have any control over the situation and that is the worst feeling in the world to me. I like to feel that I at least have a little bit of control, you know? I told Brandon that I just had to stop for a bit. I needed to take a step back and re group. He has been the best and understood that I needed time. I eventually had to go to my doctor and be put on anti depressants. After that, I am like a new person. I never worry about kids anymore. Yes, it still bothers me, but it doesn't consume me like it used to. Well after the med, I still will have my down days. Well this year right before my birthday, Brandon came in and said he had been thinking....he decided that he would purchase me the dog of my dreams....a Yorkie! I have wanted a Yorkie for soooo long. I was floored! We had never had a dog of our own and we immediately began preparations. I spent a while researching breeders and found ours. We knew Katie Scarlett was 'the one' the minute we laid eyes on her. I put a deposit down on her and began the wait until she could come home to us at 12 weeks. During that time, I puppy proofed the house and read anything I could get my hands on about Yorkies, puppies, training, etc. When she finally came home, it was just so natural. It's like she has always been here and we are in heaven! We have had her 3 months now and cannot imagine a day without our Katie Scarlett! At this point, I could honestly say that she can be my 'baby' and I would be fine, but I know in the back of my mind that my husband still wants to try. And Katie Scarlett has given me that want to back. She has given me my life back. She makes me happy and I know that whether we have kids or not, she will be right by our side and along for any ride we take together. I hope she is here a long, long time. I love her more than I could ever put into words!!!