Wow, this is really a hard question to answer. Having lost our boxer boy Isaiah last year on Christmas Eve to cancer, I can tell you now, I'd love nothing more than to wrap my arms around him and just hold him, him, not ashes. We had him cremated and on Christmas Eve this year, all I could do was sit and hold his urn.... I couldn't feel his fur, I couldn't wrap my arms around his body, I couldn't bury my face in his chest and just breath him in. I miss him so badly. With Isaiah, there was no way we could have done this even if we wanted to, the cancer, it, to spare the details, it just took him over. If given this option with my Mags, knowing the hurt and pain I feel now missing Isaiah so badly and just wanting to touch him, feel him, wrap my arms around him.... Ya, I think I probably could with Mags. I guess I wouldn't totally be sure until that time came. All I have left of Isaiah are memories, which one day when I get old will more than likely fade when my memory fails me, and I have a glass locket with his fur in it that I've worn around my neck since the day we gave him back to God, and, we have his ashes, a cold container.... Ya, I think I could do this, and when I die, then I'd want Mags cremated with me. But again, I don't really know if I could go through with it until I was faces with the reality of her death and never seeing her again until I got to heaven.
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