I know how you feel about being 'cheated' by your beloved's early parting. When I got my whippet as a pup, I met his grandparents, aged 18 and 22. I thought that I was going to have to provide for OJ in my will, but we had to ease his way to The Bridge after a miserable few months battling congestive heart failure when he was only 11 years old. This was in September and we got Smokey a month later.
I still mourn my best friend and heart-dog and beat myself up regularly about what I maybe could have done and didnt do. I took him to a specialist, I spent a fortune on his care, I had him by my side day and night as I watched him deterioriate before my eyes. What I could have done is to have let him go before he became skin and bones and was gasping for breath. At best, all the drugs and therapy would have bought him (me?) a few more months.
If this was your dog's time and apparently, it was, then it was a blessing that it all happened quickly and with a minimum of suffering. Time heals.. you will forgive yourself for whatever you think you did or didnt do, as I am attempting to forgive myself. We are after all, only human.
__________________ Smokey's personal assistant,
Jeff  |