We go to my parents on Christmas Eve. I do not take it for granted or lightly but I feel like I am going to throw up.The last 4 years my family has shunned my adult children because they have children out of wedlock. It is the only time of the year they are welcome at a family get together and the tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife and I walk around the week before a nervous wreck. It ruins the holidays for me. I use to love Christmas but now I am so nervous I can't hardley enjoy it. Its a shame that I let this affect me so deeply but I cannot control it. I really want everyone to be together but my family do not like my children (their grandchildren) and its no secret. |