[salazark]

I so understanding how you're feeling. It's a long story but I was estranged from most of my family for several years. I spend Christmas with my husband's family but it just isn't the same. My mom passed away a year and a half ago and I miss her so much. My grown children are back in my life now but they spend holidays with my ex and his family. I really miss all the things we used to do at the holidays. I've kind of forced some of them on my husband's family. Tonight my stepson gave me a big hug and told me he loves the way "we" do Christmas. I don't think he'll ever know how much that meant to me.