I'm so sorry. I know how painful it is to lose a baby. I had mine for 15 years and I will never, ever forget my little Tuffy. I now have a little yorkie and she is the love of my life also. The only thing I know for sure is that someday we will all be together for eternity and that will be a wonderful day. Please keep the faith that you haven't lost your baby forever. May your lovely baby rest in peace.