I'm so very sorry for your loss. I too would see my pup running through the house after she passed. I believe she hadn't really left yet... her spirit was lingering, allowing me to get used to the idea that she was gone.
How does one function? I started by putting one foot in front of the other. Then I tried my daily routines, and when I reached for a food bowl to feed her, I cried remembering she was gone. I cried a little less each day. It is very hard. I felt like I had a big hole right in my heart. I had pain in my chest from it too.
I believe God takes them back when He needs them. They are precious and He only loans them to us for a time. When He takes one of mine back, I feel He knows there is another one here on Earth that needs me more, so I begin looking for one who needs a home. It helps me to get another one quickly because all my love keeps building up in my body and has no outlet. When I get a 'new' pup, then that leftover Love is put to good use, given freely to one who had no one to love them. The ones that have departed though always have a place in my heart, and I learn to cherish the happy memories and good times we had together, without so many tears.
I will pray for you that God may ease your pain and help your poor dear heart to mend. Know that your little one is free of pain and is running free at Rainbow Bridge, with many others who have crossed over the Bridge and are now waiting patiently to see their owners/friends once again. She is in good company, as are you, here with us.
Love and Hugs,
Kathy |