[jmdt]

Ok I'm NOT taking it !!! I am just kind of sleeping off and on all night. Not really getting a restful sleep.
I have cholinesterase deficiency..it is an allergy to the muscle relaxer they give you before general anesthesia. I don't have the enzyme to break down the muscle relaxer. So it takes longer for my body to remove it. Only I didn't know I had this issue until...When I lost my twins I had to have anesthesia so the doctor could remove them and I was only supposed to be put out for like 45minutes and I was out for 5hours. They tried to wake me after the procedure and I was paralyzed still. I was awake and could only see but not move. I was intubated and the idiot machine was breathing for me and I was awake the whole time. It was really scary because I kind of panicked in my head and I couldnt breathe for myself the stupid machine was going to slow for me. Now I have anxiety because of that frightful time. I take anxiety medication but I am afraid to take anything that will make me feel like I wont wake up.

Forget the stupid Ambien. I will just deal with it, it's not that bad.