[Britster]

Girl, if you ever need to talk, I am here. I can't imagine losing my dad, I am so close to him. But I did lose my little brother, who I was super close to, he was 5 when he died and I often have days where I am just sooo blah. I can't stop thinking about him, I can't sleep, I just get in a funk some times and I won't even know why until I suddenly realize I either see something that reminds me of Connor, or it's day significant to him, etc. He died in June and his birthday was in July so those two months I'm generally really down.

On those days, I have to get myself out and about. I can't just sit at home as much as I want to. I take advantage of having a dog and usually just take him to the dog park, or go for a long walk, anything to get my mind off the pain. Though I will say, some days I almost "enjoy" just letting out a good cry. I hold stuff in a lot so I have a few nights a year where I just cry... and let it all out... and it does help.

Oh and whoever says time heals all wounds never has experienced such a painful loss, IMO. Sure, it may EASE up over time... but time, IMO, does not heal anything. You really just learn to live with it. I've come to realize dying is a part of life but it sure doesn't make it any easier.

I am here for you if you need to talk.