I lost my dad 4 years ago this past July. No one knows the special bond that a father has with his daughter and visa versa. Not unless you are one. The pain is immeasurable. I think of him all the time. You know what I do is whenever I see a butterfly I think it's him flying by me. I know it's weird but the day he died I bought a butterfly bush and it attracts tons of butterflies. It is very hard to live without him. He truly was everything to me. Just never, ever forget those special times you had with him. I speak of him often to my kids, and we laugh. I get down every now and then and cry, and it's ok to cry. It is a very deep sorrow that never, ever will go away. My daddy lives in my heart and I just know we will be together again. What gets me through is that I know he would be sad if he knew I was miserable or sad. I just keep saying, "I'm ok", I would never want to make him sad. He is with my mom and they have eachother, so I feel better knowing they are not alone.
I wish you well and I am truly sorry about your dads passing. Keep your chin up and continue to make him proud.
